People usually look forward in the new year. However, I actually look back this year. In the past, I like to look back, look through the photos and reminiscence past memories. However, when I was 18, I decided to stop looking back at the past. Whenever I look back, I felt very pessimistic and feel that there is a lot of regrets in my life. I fail to treasure the people around me, fail to lead a fulfilling life, fail to enjoy myself ....So I decided to just treasure everything I have and enjoy every moment I have now, without looking back or thinking abt the future. But in this New Year 2008, I actually look back again.

Throughout the years, a lot of things have changed. I am no longer the ger who can cry anywhere irregardless of the people around me or the venue. Haha..cannot even remember the no of times I cried in Primary and Secondary School. In canteen can cry, in classroom can cry, outside teachers room also can cry. Also dunnoe why my tear glands are so active. The current me is more optimistic bah. I dun cry easily unless watching sad shows and I tend to take things more easy. Is this good or bad?

However, I feel that I lost the courage to express my feelings. In the past, I dun really bother about how people view me. I laugh out loud when I am happy. (Can even sit on the classroom floor and laugh out loud in front of the whole class) I cry when I am sad. I ignore people when I am moody. But now, the only expression is smile. From sy, I realise that I lost the courage to express my feeling. Whenever I am feeling sad or depress, I will just find things to occupied myself. I will tell myself it is ok, the feeling will go away. I dun dare to face my own feelings. Some people thinks this is having the so-called high "EQ". But isit really high EQ? I feel that I am so cowardly. I am just running away from my own feeling and suppressing it, thinking that as long as I dun think abt it it will not be there. Very often, it is still there. Just bluffing myself to make myself feel better.

Somebody name appear again. Someone I hope I could avoid forever. But the person name appear again. I feel kind of depress every time I saw anything that has got to do with that person. However, I still went to view that person profile. After viewing, mood seems to be worst. I really dunnoe how am I gonna face that person if we meet again one day. I just hate the feeling that person give me.

Well, for 2008, my wishes are:

1) Family healthy and happy always

2) Everything go smoothly

3) Become a better person??

4) Exam results all A+???

5) Forever wont see that person

6) World peace

7) All my wish comes true.